Dear twenties, it’s nearly over.
In case you haven’t figured it out (and if you haven’t, what the heck is wrong with you! Heh.), I’m 29. The last of my twenties. I didn’t think I’d ever say this, but I’m glad to see this decade go. It’s been tough and stupid, and I’m ready for new things.
I’ve been thinking a lot about turning 29. For the last 5 or 6 years, I’ve always been depressed around my birthday. I would take stock of my life, and compare my life with others, and I never felt like I measured up. I didn’t have the degree, the husband or the babies, or the good friends. For some reason, I thought that there was wrong with ME. That because I didn’t have any of these things, that I wasn’t okay.
A few days ago, I decided that I wasn’t going to think that way this year. I’ve come a long way from 28. I have a really good job, a car that works, I’m in school, I’m sorting out my craziness, and I have amazing friends. I don’t have a husband, and I don’t have babies, but I will. I really think that I’m where I’m supposed to be. People say that my thirties are going to be amazing, and I agree. I’m okay.
On this reflection on the day of my birth, I’d like to make some goals. Nothing really fancy, but some things that I’d like to do this year:
- I need to be more proactive about my writing. Since I’m majoring in journalism, it’s time I started really writing. I don’t think I could write every day, but I’m going to make a commitment to write a blog at least once a week. And not just talking about my life, because if you read my twitter or facebook, you pretty much know what’s going on. I’m going to post snippets of stories I think of, or what’s going on in the world, etc.
- 2. I want to have more local friends I love all my peeps that are out of state. I really do. But I don’t have any local friends here, and it’s sort of hard to make them at my age. I’m not 10 anymore; I can’t go up to people and ask them if they want to play. So if you’re in the OKC area, let’s hang out sometime. Seriously.
I think those are two really good goals. I’m not going to try to stretch myself with any more than two; because the more stuff I have to do, the less likely I am to do them.
This is going to be a good year for me. I know it. I want to give a shout out to a few people for loving me and putting up with all my crazy. And there’s some people that I really think are cool
M(he knows who he is. And god, how I love him.)
Brian(in Tulsa)
Brian(in Tennessee)
Brandon(in Missouri)
Brandon(in North Carolina)
Joey
Donaven(I know your real name, but always think of you as donaven)
Karen(why weren’t we better friends in high school? And you’ve really had my back this year)
Carrie(I don’t know why I didn’t get to know you when I was going to brookwood? You rock!)
David and Tiffany
Paul and Inita
PJ
Avery
Jeff(get out Kentucky!)
Brian(in Idaho. This guy just rocks it.)
Wyler
Mattie
Ryan Seacrest(I’m obsessed)
My therapist (who seriously, needs an award for listening to my mess and not committing me)
Everyone on GCN
Dena
Mathew(her fab, FAB hubby)
If I didn’t mention you, don’t be sad. There so many who have prayed for me, sent me encouraging notes, and took the time to listen. I’m grateful
Like my great-grandpa, Elmo used to say, “Onward and Upward.”
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